Black and White

WARNING: PART OF THIS IS SOMEWHAT VULGAR. PLEASE DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE WEAK OF THOUGHT.

IT, is, black and white.

In the wake of any story, news, or world event, what I am always most dazzled by, is the human energy spent dancing around what is so obviously the truth.

This chronic denial should not surprise me and because it does, it is evidence of my own dimwittedness and my own Ground Hog Dayish denial of social truths that repeatedly hits itself up against the walls of my mind. We humans are so very afraid to accept the plain truth, even about ourselves, that the dance of deception and denial will always trump the raw duty of the truth.

In my mind, the very reason that horrific unreasonable stories arise at all is for the truth to be given light, to expose itself.

When the whole story broke about that creep in Penn State banging retarded kids, and, as a nation we were forced to revisit the issue of child abuse, all the conversations veered right off the road and ended up stuck in a ditch of lies. “It is a pattern of abuse, the abuser was abused and so his sexuality was corrupted. It is about power and control.” Really? Is it? Then why don’t priests just rape female nuns instead of little boys?

The truth about child abuse—as confirmed by the disgusting business that is what the internet is mostly used for—is that a startlingly large portion of men want to have sex with children. That is what turns them on. And if you understand how a penis works, it needs attraction to work, to get hard. Men who have sex with children are attracted to children. This is a painful truth.

Why is this so hard to fathom?

Because it is too disgusting, too honest. And when we can’t deal with the truth, we go to therapy, we make excuses, we defend our lies—we stew in conversations that go round and round only to be tucked away until the next story breaks.

The defending of the second amendment in the wake of a mass shooting is disgusting on two counts. One, because if you do not possess the very basic simple decency to shut the fuck up about a constitutional bill of right (AN IDEA) when there are people grieving the loss of their community and their child (their whole entire world) then you are showing that you are as much a monster as a disgusting wealthy woman who taught her emotionally unstable child how to perfectly use a gun.

Two, to defend a right to bear arms, a right that was written 221 years ago, long before cars, planes, phones, home alarm systems and all the forms of technology that can protect us from all the fantasy boogie men we perversely imagine that want to get us, tells me that you are swimming in a disgusting pool of fear created inside your weak mind.

The truth is that, very simply, if you own a gun for the purpose of protection, you want to kill a human being.

Let’s try that again.

The truth is gun owners want to or intend to, kill people. It is that simple.

When my home had an attempted break-in a couple of months back, many people told me I should have a gun. This is complete bonkery. If the two 17-year-olds had successfully entered my home and I came into contact with them, I would not have wanted to kill them. Because I have zero desire to kill any human being. Nor do I think that my home, family, or myself is worth defending to the death.

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